I've been reading The Miracle of Forgiveness and it was a minor point of interest that I found the early chapters emphasizing the seriousness of any sin to be comforting while everyone else (it seems) is taken aback by them and has trouble getting through even the first three chapters. I've put a lot of thought into it off and on and as I am getting closer and closer to the forgiveness part of the book, I'm realizing what's going on. I am reluctant to hear someone forgiving me. I have no idea how to handle someone who's understanding and loving. You can chew me out till the cows come home and I'll bounce back before the end of the day. On the flip side, though, is if you compliment me and are unrelentingly nice and polite, I have absolutely no defenses at all. Even if there's a person out there who wants me to do something bad for me (whether or not they realize it), if they go about it the right way, I am helpless against their request.
I really need to get past my childhood.
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Hey, I don't know how well you'll believe me. But you are a beautiful person on the inside (and out) and deserve to be treated right. Good luck accepting that. It amazes me how many people I know (and care deeply about) who have problems accepting forgiveness.
I might be one of those people who didn't read past the first chapter... or maybe less...
^Mary is always understanding and loving and it seems she gets past your defenses by being nice and stuff. [and not manipulative] Ditto Mary again. You are enough. You deserve forgiveness and you have great potential. :)
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