*Hope*

I was reminded of an old relationship today and it helped me realize something about my current relationship and why I have such high hopes for this one:

I don't feel like I'm trying to save the person I'm dating. He lifts me up and inspires me to be better. He says that I inspire him to be better as well. It confuses me that he can be inspired by me, but I'm happy that somehow he's a better person for knowing me (and can tell me so). Btw, ever since I told him that I cannot survive a relationship where I'm not getting compliments and verbal feedback almost constantly and he said that he can change and that he's a fast learner, things have changed for the better. For a while in there, I was finding other ppl to be attractive and being like "dang. I'm in a relationship, can't have anything happen" and it changed back to seeing people, but not caring if they're attractive in relationship to my behavior. Maybe eventually my communication with myself will get better and my mind won't have to be so blatant to let me know when something's wrong, but for now, this is good enough, I believe. I'm moving back to Utah after the season to let this relationship follow it's course and just see where it leads.